I Need to Feel Some History

I just wish things were like they were before, everything changes. Nothing is like it was, but I guess that’s the way it goes. If everything stayed the same I suppose there wouldn’t be much point, we would all get very very good at our individual problems and trials and there would be no struggle. Ha. No struggle. Sounds nice regardless of how silly it sounds.I’m learning to unremittingly date everything you ever do, think or write. (3/6/08) I have pictures from different eras, I can feel them but I have no idea what year it was. I cant place together any sort of timeline of my life. I would love to see a progression. I would love to see me shift from pot head, to emo kid, to heartbreaker, to Christian, to drunk, to Christian, to drunk, to coke addict, to Christian to whatever I am now. I would love to be able to remember everyone I’ve met and every beautiful conversation I had. Back when I was inclined to have the talks I never really appreciated them as much as I should have. Down here, im without close friends to share with, and I feel like even if I did have anyone to talk to I wouldn’t have much to say. Everything changes. I’m feeling pretty good tonight, I’m listening to Rilo Kiley’s The Execution of All Things. It’s so F_cking Beautiful. I’ve been having an extremely hard time finding any new music I like that much. I think I might like Louis XIV.